WyzWmn's World©

I find
that for the first time in my life
I’m doing what I want

not what my partner wants
not what my parents want
not what my friends want
not what the bank wants

just what I want.

and while I still have
some quiet reservations…

I am kind of exhilarated

I’m being an adult
and making adult decisions
and if I spend all my money
and land flat on my ass
I have a fail safe

so
the union is fighting
the 2nd year extension
of my contract

and I’m not fussed

I simply applied for
other jobs
worth more money

cuz hey?
I’m damn near 57
it’s time
all that work experience
paid off eh?

I bought plants and pots
for my office

I rented an apartment
that’s substantially more costly
than this one

and is the kind of place
I’ve wanted to live in since
I moved to BC
14 + years ago

I bought a china cabinet
and a chair for my verandah

all those things
I’ve been denying myself
for so long

I’m doing so
with the absolute belief
that it will work out
that the cosmos
will see to it
that something
positive
will
happen
and life
will remain
good

cuz for now?

Life is damn good!

so I found
a new pad

I’m tickled
cos it’s highly
reminiscent of my fadder’s
set up at the farm

it’s country
it’s quiet
and while some areas
are smaller
there’s an extra bedroom
and a den
and laundry
shared with the lady next door
as opposed to 30 other units!

so…
now I’m all about
the whirlwind
of finding paint colours
and a china cabinet
and window dressing
etc

I’m looking forward
to living there
not so much
the packing
and moving though

my bother is going
to move me
and do the painting first
and the packing too
and shampoo the carpets

(I’m a lucky woman no?)

and then I’m gonna get on
the cable and internet
and phone
(if I decide to)
the very thought
of the next month
tires me

I think I’ll go
have a nap!