Be careful what you wish for

a blogger I read
opened herself up large
to her public
by making them aware
of something
she thinks is a good idea

and for the most part
people are cautiously optimistic
but this particular blogger
specialises in the funny side of life
on her blog
and this “good idea”
isn’t funny
it’s serious….

so as a result she’s experienced
some rather minor tarring
and feathering
at the hands of her public
(course it’d be minor in my eyes but likely major in hers…)

a couple o things come to mind for me:

1..having been on the receiving end of people that don’t approve of my thoughts opinions or wisdom on more than one occasion I know that ya gotta be pretty thick skinned not to take personally everything that people say to or about you it’s hard enough when it comes from a friend…..but when it comes from a cyber stranger it does not make it less painful in fact it may be more painful cos you don’t really know if that person’s intent was to aid or injure…..if anything it’s because we as human beings seem to need to “be involved”. We tack emotions to our cyber friends and when they don’t turn out to be the same “kind” of people we attached those emotions to…we get our feathers ruffled, er knickers in a knot, er however you want to say it….

2…Anonymous comments (we’ve had this conversation here before) are for gutless, spineless, un-integral people (don’t hold back now Wyz…tell us how you really feel!) that are fulla themselves but not really able to stand up and identify themselves and stand behind what they say! I get the whole bit about not being a blogger member so you can’t sign in…but dammit – make it anonymous with your nickname er sommat in the post so it doesn’t just look like yer out there taking gleeful shots at someone who’s put their heart on their sleeve! or so it doesn’t look like yer a gutless, spineless un-integral asswipe!

3. opinions are like assholes….every body’s got one. As I said to the blogger in question…”you just continue to do what you believe to be right for you….and the rest of the world can do so or pound sand…it’s a winwin”

4. I’ve done a lot of writing in the past few days to keep from having to write Chapter 34 and going forward with this part of my life story…I’ve told you things lots of my nearest and dearest friends were unaware of and that’s been good for me

but I’ve actually been losing sleep over the reliving and the telling of what goes forward from here..which is why I’m not at work today – no sleep last night (on an aside…I think that a 4 day work week would be a good law to have passed…same amount of money…less time in the office…no?)….I’m still not sure that I can or will or want to put onto “paper” the events as they occurred…I’ve examined it and I understand that my lack of motivation is not that I think you will think less of me…I am no longer a victim, I understand that, but what I am is reluctant to write it as the act of writing it, while cathartic, is also painful on levels only one who has been a victim will understand.

be patient faithful readers….I remain…a work in progress.

***added a couple o hours later***
and if ya ain’t depressed to start with…daytime tv is enough to throw you over the damn edge!
~I’m just sayin!~

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Life…

it really takes character
to understand it
eh?

I’ve spent the most part
of the last two days
on the internet
consoling friends from distances
far and wide
over the loss of our riding/internet friend
GreyBeard

and while doing that I’ve also
watched almost all
of season 1
of StarGate…SG1
just for shits n giggles…

the thing I liked about GreyBeard
was his readiness to accept people
for what they are
not what we wanted them to be
himself included

that acceptance of humanity
good, bad or indifferent
in hopes of learning from it
was a blessing he bestowed upon
or taught many of us….

he wasn’t a superhero
he was human
and he knew it…
but he tried
and what more can ya ask for?

the thing I like about SG1
is that every episode comes with a moral
a small reminder of the state
of the human condition

not so very different
than thinking about my friend GreyBeard

life
and the remembrance
that it really takes character
to understand it

yet another lesson learned

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