Another Saturday…

well
here I am
a week later

it’s Saturday
and the day started out
foggy enough
I couldn’t see
the forest for the trees

however the sun
is now shining
and I’m feeling
not half bad

this week involved
2 visits to the hospital
and 2 visits to the Dr

my life is so much fun
sometimes
I just can’t stand it

they still cant figure out
what is causing all this
but they are more than
able to prescribe
antibiotics

and I’m at the stage
where if the antibiotic
cuts the pain
and the bleeding
I’m all for it

I’ve been tested
and I do not have
c difficle

in speaking with
the Dr yesterday
he advises
that it can’t be
my kidneys
or bladder
because those
were all scoped 2 years ago
and were perfectly healthy

uhhhhmmmm?
2 years?
*sigh*
we had a “conversation”
and I’m now being scheduled
for ultrasounds
on my kidneys
and bladder

sheesh!
right smack dab
in the middle of all this
this week
comes a blow
from the pharmaceutical community
once again (same time as last year)
the company that makes
the cancer med
that I am on for Crohn’s disease
stops making it
and there is a world wide shortage
as a result
both myself
and my pharmacist
have been trying to contact
the specialist
that deals with my Crohn’s

she has yet to respond
to either of us
which I assume
means that her whole practice
is freaking
for the same reason I am
however
I’ve had no meds
for my Crohn’s since Tues
and I’m recalcitrant
to go back to the drug
we used as a substitute
last time
as it made me
very very ill.

like I need help

In other news
I’ve been given the boot
from a group
that I helped create
several years ago
as a result
of something I said
in my blog
last week

suffice it to say
that there’ve been many goings on
over the years
but at this point
those people that caused me to be turfed

no longer have the ability
to hurt me
there are still however
people in that group
that will continue to be
my friends
and
the people
from that group
that would like to remain
in touch
will do so
and those that don’t
will not be missed.

Ya’ll know you can find me
on Facebook
or via email
anytime.

Now
I have a good book
a large chicken ceasar salad
a sweater
a lap blanket
and
and a lawn chair

see You!

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it’s Saturday…and Mabon!

and I’m feeling ok…

I am a creature of habit
every single day I must
put my keys
wallet
cash
and phone in exactly
the same place
when I walk in the door
or I’m hooped

yesterday
I came home from work
early
as I’m still sick

4th bout of antibiotics
in 3 mths
and these morons
still don’t know for sure
what’s causing it
they haven’t actually
begun testing
to find out what’s wrong
but I digress

this morning I woke
to no food in the house again
so I had to go get something
early
due to being diabetic

I cannot
for the life of me
find my damn keys
house and car

frack!

I’ve searched high and low
and can not find them
I’m thinking when I do
I’m going to have to put
a beeper on them
and put the home end
of the beeper
on my inside
front door nob
so I can at least
hear them while I’m searching

in other news

I’ve had to start having
drinking water
delivered to my home
due to the landlord
watering the blueberry plants
on this organic blueberry farm
I live on
and yesterday
I am awoken from a deep sleep
by Pixie going crazy
growling and barking
like Armageddon is upon us
it was the guy
delivering my first
jugs of water

I picked her up
and went to the door
and she growled at him
and barked
and snapped like crazy
I put her down
and she attacked his
work boot
she didn’t like the truck
and she surely didn’t
like the driver

I’ve heard from an old friend
she’s moving up island
and I’m hoping we can reconnect
before she does

she and her husband
who was the reason
we fell out in the first place
have split up
and his behaviour has been
less than stellar
cruel actually
but that doesn’t surprise me either
he’s always worn his addictions
like a mantel of semantics
to protect himself from naysayers
and I’m a naysayer
and knowing him
he’ll find a way to blame me
for them splitting up
in the first place…and I don’t care

anyway
I’ve missed her
and I truly hope that this
new beginning
brings her great peace
and happiness
and maybe even someday
real love
from someone that cherishes her
not beats her down at every turn

I’ve also been reminded today
that I have 3 of these blogs
and I need to get my shit together
and do something with them

Blessed Mabon everyone!
the fields share their bounty with us
tomatoes taste like they should
corn is sweet
pumpkins are glorious
it is a blessed time
of year
for us all
if we just pay attention!

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