profound thought of the day
you can read
as many
motivational quotes
posters
thoughts
and books
as you want
in the end
your choices
can be
removed
from you
by your disease
or diseases
I’m having
what seems to be
a new and improved
Crohn’s attack…
I can not
at any given time
be more than 5 paces
from the restroom
because
of what is expelling out
both ends of me…
I need groceries
can’t leave the vicinity
of the rest room
I want to do housework
I can’t stand
long enough
without
throwing up
I want to read
I can’t sit up
long enough
without
throwing up
I need to do laundry
I can’t leave the vicinity
of the rest room
I get up every morning
with firm resolve
to change my day
and I can’t make it
through breakfast
without being challenged
by my body
without my body
staging a revolt.
I can’t even go to work
I thought this was the flu
and it’s not
the more bored
and stressed
I get
the worse my symptoms
I can’t even cry
cos that moves up the
expelling process
exponentially
(if you get
my drift?)
people wonder
where my depression
comes from?
they ought to try
endless days
of laying on the couch
or in bed
waiting for the next
bout
while other people
have lives..
visit..
work…
they ought to try
endless days
of daytime tv
I can only read
so many books
laying on my side…
they ought to try
Crohn’s for one day
I’d bet good money
they’d give it back….