and so it goes

I find
that for the first time in my life
I’m doing what I want

not what my partner wants
not what my parents want
not what my friends want
not what the bank wants

just what I want.

and while I still have
some quiet reservations…

I am kind of exhilarated

I’m being an adult
and making adult decisions
and if I spend all my money
and land flat on my ass
I have a fail safe

so
the union is fighting
the 2nd year extension
of my contract

and I’m not fussed

I simply applied for
other jobs
worth more money

cuz hey?
I’m damn near 57
it’s time
all that work experience
paid off eh?

I bought plants and pots
for my office

I rented an apartment
that’s substantially more costly
than this one

and is the kind of place
I’ve wanted to live in since
I moved to BC
14 + years ago

I bought a china cabinet
and a chair for my verandah

all those things
I’ve been denying myself
for so long

I’m doing so
with the absolute belief
that it will work out
that the cosmos
will see to it
that something
positive
will
happen
and life
will remain
good

cuz for now?

Life is damn good!