so…turns out 2020 may suck

So it turns out 2020 may suck…
I made myself a promise
that I would start journaling again
in 2020

I figured maybe my problem was
with the interwebs
So on April 1
I started journaling in a
bullet journal
yeah…
that didn’t last long

my problem was
with the interwebs
So on April 1
I started journaling in a
bullet journal
yeah…
that didn’t last long

So then I decided
that it was the calibre
of paper
and the fact that
the bullet journal
I was using
had no lines
just dots

yeah – nice excuse eh?

So…I bought a
memory keeping journal
and promised me
that I would start
on May 1, 2020

then shit happened
I have a story to tell you
but I can’t tell you just now
as I’m not supposed to be typing
and this fucking note
has taken an hour

but once the arm heals
I’m all over that shit
live
and in
person

I can’t promise any kind of
organization
or express lucidity
but soon eh?

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2019 – 2020

2019 sucked for many people and the end of it brings along the end of this decade.

Part of my year was pretty touch and go…the first 7 months sucked hard, a lot of the time….however, I got a job in Aug that I’m proud of, that I sincerely enjoy, that doesn’t discriminate against my Brain Injury and am feeling rewarded by (also, I think they like me 😉). There literally is none of the kind of horrid negativity that I have had to operate under for the last 4 years.

The last 4 yrs have been an asskicker for me…physically, health wise, financially and mentally… my Crohns Disease has gone postal more than once and I now have further ongoing gut issues as a result of my last surgery. I’ve beaten the hell outta this old body culminating in my ankle in Oct, along with a torn rotator cuff (possibly requiring surgery) and now today a tooth has collapsed and will cause me to empty my meager bank account in the first week of 2020. I’m coming fast up on retirement age in July…however there will be no retirement for this woman…not yet.

Also, I am reminded of a huge number of very good people that have gone on to the Summerlands in the last year or two.

All of this aside…Right this moment, I am feeling in a better place than I have in a long long time. I feel very positive and grateful going into 2020 (it’s not all diamonds and roses but it’s good)

It is my best wish for all of you that you find peace, the strength you need and more love in 2020.

Happy New Year for us all!

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